Saturday, December 4, 2010

life.




its been long time i didn't write anything,,
its seems now is the right timing
the whole day rained and do not have single clue when it will stop,,
lately many emotions had bloomed around me..
anger,,sad,,confuse,,
one of my friend said that i am being too serious in taking life..
but shouldnt we..
or it is just me
i need someone to share through what i been facing
someone to hear without any complaint
i miss my family
how they do really care about me
i miss my best friend who is always there right beside me
i miss the moment i had spent together with my late grandma
why life seems so hard for me
entering uitm for second semester brought many new challenges 
i had to fight for my right
i need to study hard
i need to be someone usefull
shouldn't i take life seroiusly ?
tell me
maybe i need to relax.
relax thinking the best way to fulfill everything
but this will not make we weak as my friend say i am like bubbles.easily breakable 
am i ?
who have the answer to this.
perhaps i am the person to solve it
i know i have weakness.
happy is meaningful word to me
i cant show that i am sad.
to be happy and smile is what i love to do
oh and yes fight too
 where will life lead me ?
we will just wait and see

p/s : arif,,i know my grammar sucks ! HAHA.



Sunday, November 14, 2010




love

what do you think of love?  what does love means to you ? and what type of love do you want? what type of lover i want ?

my friends always ask this questions to me.till this day i don't have the answer to it.

maybe this entry will help to answer those questions.

i think that love is made for everyone and no one can't escape it.
i also thinks that love is blind

love to me is a deep feeling that we share with others.

love to me is emotions that make we feel tortured

love to me is subject that can be seen trough our eyes

love to me is is my mother,father,sister and brother,grandma,auntie's and uncle's

love to me is when we meet someone that we know that the person will take care of us.

love to me is sharing everything with the person we assumed to be our soulmate.

love to me is my soulmate



what type of love i want?

i want the love that make me be myself 

i want the love that bring me to journey without going anywhere .

i want the love to be the most beautiful scene ever


what type of lover i want  ? 

i want someone to be with me while i'm crying

i want someone that understand me while i'm explaining

i want someone to trust me when i say i'm not guilty

i want someone that i can lay on when i'm in difficulties.

i want someone that lend me his chest when i'm afraid

i want someone that care for me

i want someone who is willing to do anything for me

i want someone who love me for who i am

i want someone who look at my eyes and say that he love me

i want someone to appear in my dreams when i'm in nightmare

and 

i want that someone be mine forever

 i want the 'one' tells me this when he is trying the best

i know all i do is i can wish

 and i wish what i have said will be mine

it is every girl thing to dream the best

and i am not an execeptional












Thursday, November 11, 2010

MEMORIES

memory is the most beautiful souvenir of our life.no doubt.by memories we remember someone or some situation that we will never forget no matter if it's great or damn bad.

my BEAUTIFULL memory starts right the moment when i received the news of getting place in univercity. * it is acctually damn AWFULL because i HAD TO LEAVE MY HOME * OH NO *
* someone rescue me !!!! * i was crying hell out till i think i put myself in a condition u will never believe to see me like that..assume that the picture is me just * ADD ON SOME HAIR,,POWDER,,GLOSS,,BLUSHER,,AND OH RIBBON * im kidding lol *

the journey than continue when i met 2 of my roomate which are slighty kind.haha.no la.they are kind.three of us was the only JUNIOR in that apartment.SO WHAT.WE ARE HAPPY but not with the others attitude that makes me want to kill.hahah.there was an intention.im not kidding.HAHHAHAHHAHAHHAHHAHA..
hey then the misery beguns to show its COLOUR.haha.am i using the rite word or what.ok ignore.i can see u are going to open a DICTIONARY.

ok..back to story..it was after a trip to the beach.we went for a day out.it was fun yet tiring and MAKE ME TURN BLACK IN COLOUR.not totally but SLIGHLTY DARK.
then then then,,MY EYE.,OH NO MY EYE,,
my eye was infected..some tissue's broke and turn my eye onto DRACULA,,VAMPIRE,,GHOST or whatever name u want INTO RED in colour.
oh my oh my oh my.,i had to wear sunglasses to CLASS..for heaven sake can u imagine. well i did.
there 's a lot of people gave their comment eventhough I DIN'T ASK FOR IT. *what to do *
* just smile and take it *
i think about weeks i wore those sunglasses to class and I BECAME POPULAR.the guard also now know me.and there was one boy senior teasing me saying that im HOT in those stupid sunglasses and i just ignore.i know he is just trying to make me mad.and sucess was his.
then story continue when i ALWAYS FORGETS.
i forget where i put my wallet.and cry the hell out.
i forget i buy a bread at seven eleven and left it there.the cashier boy LAUGH at me.
and i hope i dint forget WHO I AM.HAHAHHHAA.
if and only if i forget WHO I AM,.do pleasee !!! make me remember.ahahahahhahhah

ok.stop.im tired.byebye.

f.y.i  i  kinda cry like this whenever i have to be in kuantan..again and again







Wednesday, November 3, 2010

i love u ABAH.

i read this and it touches me,i hope that the person don't mind me sharing this at my blog........
i just want my father to know that i love him equal as i love my mother..
both of u are my life ma and abah..

p/s ; this entry is in bahasa melayu.




Biasanya, bagi seorang anak perempuan yang sudah dewasa, yang sedang bekerja diperantauan, yang ikut suaminya merantau di luar kota atau luar negeri,yang sedang bersekolah atau kuliah jauh dari kedua orang tuanya...Akan sering merasa rindu sekali dengan ibunya..Lalu bagaimana dengan AYAH?

Mungkin kerana ibu lebih sering menelefon untuk menanyakan keadaanmu setiap hari, tapi tahukah kamu, jika ternyata ayah-lah yang mengingatkan ibu untuk menelefonmu?

Mungkin dulu sewaktu kamu kecil, ibu-lah yang lebih sering mengajakmu bercerita atau berdongeng, tapi tahukah kamu, bahwa sekembalinya ayah dr bekerja dan dengan wajah lelah ayah selalu menanyakan pada ibu tentang khabarmu dan apa yang kau lakukan seharian?

Pada saat dirimu masih seorang anak perempuan kecil.Ayah biasanya mengajari putri kecilnya naik basikal .Dan setelah ayah mengganggapmu sudah boleh menunggangnya, ayah akan melepaskan roda bantu di basikalmu .Kemudian Ibu bilang : "Jangan dulu ayahnya, jangan ditanggalkan dulu roda bantunya", itu kerana ibu takut puteri manisnya akan terjatuh lalu terluka....

Tapi sedarkah dikau?Bahwa ayah dengan yakin akan membiarkanmu, menatapmu, dan menjagamu mengayuh basikal dengan seksama kerana dia tahu puteri kecilnya PASTI mampu melakukannya.

Pada saat kamu menangis merengek meminta alat permainan yang baru, ibu menatapmu hiba.Tetapi ayah akan mengatakan dengan tegas : "Boleh, kita beli nanti, tapi tidak sekarang" Tahukah kamu, ayah melakukan itu kerana ayah tidak ingin kamu menjadi anak yang manja dengan semua tuntutan yang selalu dapat dipenuhi.

Saat kamu ditimpa sakit , ayah lah yang terlalu khawatir sampai kekadang sedikit membentak dengan berkata : "Sudah di beritahu! kamu jangan minum air sejuk!".Berbeza dengan ibu yang memperhatikan dan menasihatimu dengan lembut.Ketahuilah, saat itu ayah benar-benar mengkhuatirkan keadaanmu..

Ketika kamu sudah beranjak muda remaja..Kamu mulai menuntut pada ayah untuk mendapat keizinan keluar malam, dan ayah bersikap tegas dan mengatakan: "Tidak boleh!".Tahukah kamu, bahwa ayah melakukan itu untuk menjagamu?Kerana bagi ayah, kamu adalah sesuatu yang sangat - sangat luar biasa berharga..Setelah itu kamu marah pada ayah, dan masuk ke kamar sambil membanting pintu...

Dan yang datang mengetok pintu dan memujukmu agar tidak marah adalah ayah.Tahukah kamu,bahwa saat itu ayah memejamkan matanya dan menahan gejolak dalam batinnya, Bahwa ayah sangat ingin mengikuti keinginanmu, Tapi lagi-lagi dia HARUS menjagamu?

Ketika saat seorang teman lelaki mulai sering menelefonmu, atau bahkan datang ke rumah untuk menemuimu,ayah akan memasang wajah paling cool sedunia.... :') ayah sesekali menguping atau mengintip saat kamu sedang berbuall berdua di ruang tamu..Sedarkah kamu, kalau hati ayah merasa cemburu?

Saat kamu mulai lebih dipercaya, dan ayah melonggarkan sedikit peraturan untuk keluar rumah untukmu, kamu akan memaksa untuk melanggar jam malamnya.Maka yang dilakukan ayah adalah duduk di ruang tamu, dan menunggumu pulang dengan hati yang sangat khuatirdan bimbang.Dan setelah perasaan khuatir itu berlarut - larut.Ketika melihat puteri kecilnya pulang larut malam hati ayah akan mengeras dan memarahimu..Sedarkah kamu, bahwa ini kerana hal yang di sangat ditakuti ayah akan segera datang? "Bahwa puteri kecilnya akan segera pergi meninggalkannya"

Setelah lulus SPM, Ayah akan sedikit memaksamu untuk menjadi seorang Doktor atau Engineer. Ketahuilah, bahwa seluruh paksaan yang dilakukan ayah itu semata - mata hanya karena memikirkan masa depanmu nanti.Tapi ayah tetap tersenyum dan menyokongmu saat pilihanmu tidak sesuai dengan keinginan ayah.

Ketika kamu menjadi gadis dewasa.Dan kamu harus pergi kuliah dikota lain.ayah harus melepaskanmu di bandar.Tahukah kamu bahwa badan ayah terasa kaku untuk memelukmu? Ayah hanya tersenyum sambil memberi nasihat ini - itu, dan menyuruhmu untuk berhati-hati.Padahal ayah ingin sekali menangis seperti ibu dan memelukmu erat-erat.Yang ayah lakukan hanya menghapus sedikit air mata di sudut matanya, dan menepuk pundakmu berkata "Jaga dirimu baik-baik ya sayang".Ayah melakukan itu semua agar kamu KUAT....kuat untuk pergi dan menjadi dewasa.

Disaat kamu kesempitan wang untuk membiayai perbelanjaan semester dan kehidupanmu, orang pertama yang mengerutkan kening adalah ayah. Ayah pasti berusaha keras mencari jalan agar anaknya boleh merasa sama dengan teman-temannya yang lain.Ketika permintaanmu bukan lagi sekadar meminta alat mainan yang baru, dan ayah tahu ia tidak mampu memberikan apa yang kamu inginkan...

Kata-kata yang keluar dari mulut Ayah adalah : "Tidak.... Tidak boleh!" Padahal dalam batin Ayah, Ia sangat ingin mengatakan "Iya sayang, nanti ayah belikan untukmu".Tahukah kamu bahwa pada saat itu Ayah merasa gagal membuat anaknya tersenyum?

Saatnya kamu berjaya sebagai seorang sarjana. Ayah adalah orang pertama yang berdiri dan memberi tepuk tangan untukmu.Ayah akan tersenyum dengan bangga dan puas melihat "puteri kecilnya yang tidak manja berhasil tumbuh dewasa, dan telah menjadi seseorang" Sampai saat seorang teman Lelakimu datang ke rumah dan meminta izin pada ayah untuk mengambilmu darinya.Papa akan sangat berhati-hati memberikan izin..Kerana Ayah tahu.....Bahwa lelaki itulah yang akan menggantikan posisinya nanti.

Dan akhirnya....

Saat ayah melihatmu duduk di kerusi pelaminan bersama seseorang Lelaki yang di anggapnya mampu menggantikannya, Ayah pun tersenyum bahagia..Apakah kamu mengetahui, di hari yang bahagia itu ayah pergi kebelakang pentas pelaminan sebentar, dan menangis? Ayah menangis karena ayah sangat berbahagia, kemudian ayah berdoa....Dalam lirih doanya kepada Tuhan, Ayah berkata: "Ya Allah tugasku telah selesai dengan baik....Puteri kecilku yang lucu dan kucintai telah menjadi wanita solehah yang cantik....Bahagiakanlah dia bersama suaminya...rahmatilah kehidupan mereka Ya Allah"

Setelah itu Ayah hanya mampu menunggu kedatanganmu bersama cucu-cucunya yang sesekali datang untuk menjenguk...Dengan rambut yang telah dan semakin memutih....Dan badan serta lengan yang tak lagi kuat untuk menjagamu dari bahaya....Ayah telah menyelesaikan tugasnya....Papa, Ayah, Bapak, atau Abah kita...Adalah sosok yang harus selalu terlihat kuat...Bahkan ketika dia tidak kuat untuk tidak menangis...Dia harus terlihat tegas bahkan saat dia ingin memanjakanmu.Dan dia adalah yang orang pertama yang selalu yakin bahwa "KAMU MAMPU" dalam segala hal..



Sunday, October 31, 2010

Miley Cyrus - When I Look At You

when i look at u - miley cyrus

  i love this song.the lyrics is so meaningful.so enjoy.





Everybody needs inspiration
Everybody needs a song
A beautiful melody when the night's so long
'Cause there is no guarantee that this life is easy

Yeah, when my world is falling apart
When there's no light to break up the dark
That's when I, I, I look at you

When the waves are flooding the shore
And I can't find my way home anymore
That's when I, I, I look at you

When I look at you, I see forgiveness, I see the truth
You love me for who I am like the stars hold the moon
Right there where they belong
And I know I'm not alone

Yeah, when my world is falling apart
When there's no light to break up the dark
That's when I, I, I look at you

When the waves are flooding the shore
And I can't find my way home anymore
That's when I, I, I look at you

You appear just like a dream to me
Just like kaleidoscope colors that prove to me
All I need, every breath that I breathe
Don't ya know, you're beautiful

Yeah, yeah

When the waves are flooding the shore
And I can't find my way home anymore
That's when I, I, I look at you
I look at you

Yeah, yeah, oh, oh
You appear just like a dream to me






Thursday, October 21, 2010

only US.

hey,that is US.

i was SHOCK.
to read the note.
first i taught u was just kidding
but it came out to be true.
who am i to u
and who are u to me.
that dosen't matter
because u are always there for me
it is hard to let u go
as we spent the moment together all along.
and i know it is hard for u too
as u are the one who is leaving
me.
us
law E
UiTM
 i really cried,
i had never cry for a friend
even my best friend
but i dont know why
i was too sad
realize
u no longer be with me
in the day
that we should be laughing together
learning together.
but this is just an adventure.
for u and for me.
making us more missing each other
even we have just met for the first semester,
i wish you farah,,
to be happy
to be successful
to be who u want to be.
and start ur journey with warm smile
that u always did.
and never forget me as i will not forget u
there is no replacement for ur place in my heart.
u are the best best in my eyes.
goodbye girl.

this is specially for u dear...
Never has there been a time
In my entire life,

That I've felt such agony
pain, delusion, strife.

Nor have I ever cared so much
'Bout anything or one,

And take the burden upon myself
To help someone be done.

I'm learning what's important
I know what I can't do,

What I really care about
Is the happiness of you.

I can't make you as happy
As I know you need to be,

Your happiness seems so natural
When you are with me.

I don't feel so upbeat
When we are apart,

Though knowing you are happy
Gives pleasure to my heart.

Giving you up is rough for me
I care for you so much,

I'll always miss your graciousness
Your demeanor and your touch.

I wish I could have done for you
What you've done for me,

I think that I can do it now
Your freedom sets me free.

The hurt that I feel deep inside
Will never go away,

I'll keep it locked inside myself
And think of you each day.

Tears are streaming down my face
As I know what I must do,

Today I give you back your life
Not for me, but you.

I will carry all the moments
The smile and the sorrow,

Knowing you've found what you've sought
And you'll still be there tomorrow.

I've held on till the very end
Held on very tight,

I pray you can forgive me
For things I did not right.

Should things not always go the way
That you expect them to,

Please always remember
There's a friend out there for you.

I still love you very much
And will forever and ever,

For you I'll do this one last thing
I will say...Goodbye.



specially for farah asruddin..

Sunday, October 17, 2010

monkeys monkeys monkeys !!!


cute rite !!
hahaahahahahhaahaahaha..
i know i know..all of u is staring at me ..yes i did not deny that monkeys are A BIT dangerous but yet they are CUTE..
see..
monkeys actually are an loving animal. they are just like human at most of it.hahaha..family ties for a monkey is important..they protect each other towards problem and also FIGHT with each other for FUN.
threre are FUN FACTS about monkey that I want to share and hope that we can see the monkey in different way like i do.

 fun facts !!

Did you know that when monkeys yawn it's sometimes because they are tired, and sometimes because they are mad?

The orangutan is the largest fruit-eating animal in the world and it rarely comes out of the trees.

Monkeys peel their bananas and they don't eat the skin.

A group of monkeys is called a troop of monkeys.
 
All monkeys like to be clean so they have a barber monkey clean out their fur. The barber monkey's payment is the bugs in its customer's hair.

Howler monkeys are the loudest monkeys and their howl 

can 

 be heard as far as 10 miles away.


A monkey was once tried and convicted for smoking a

 cigarette in South Bend, Indiana.


Monkeys use vocalizations, facial expressions and body 

movements to communicate.



Some of the monkeys have prehensile tails, which can 

grab 

and hold objects.


Monkeys express affection and make peace with others 

by 

grooming each other.

yuhuuuuu !!!!

O.M.G so so so cute.


the year 1992 represent and symbolizes the monkey year.



People born in the Year of the Monkey are the erratic geniuses of the cycle. Clever, skillful, and flexible, they are remarkably inventive and original and can solve the most difficult problems with ease. There are few fields in which Monkey people wouldn't be successful but they have a disconcerting habit of being too agreeable. They want to do things now, and if they cannot get started immediately, they become discouraged and sometimes leave their projects. Although good at making decisions, they tend to look down on others. Having common sense, Monkey people have a deep desire for knowledge and have excellent memories. Monkey people are strong willed but their anger cools quickly. They are most compatible with the Dragon and Rat.

this is based on trust source..eventhough there are advantages but also not exceptional to the disadvantages..and btw,,NO ONE PERFECT RITE..



it is fun rite to know about monkey
i have some monkey stuff..a bag that i will be going to use it on my second semester..tons of monkey based character files..and my mouse sensor area also is monkey stuff..so u really know now rite that i love love love monkey so much,hahahah..some might think that i am CRAZY or some may think that i am WEIRDO. haha.so what !!!

see ya then in next entry..till then enjoy the monkey world and try to hang on the tree..it will be fun believe me..:)

happy day all !!!



why ???

okay hye guys..
i dont have anything that will make u laugh or entertain today..
today topic is a bit serious yet IMPORTANT especially to all girls out there including for me as lesson to be learn..


just 10 minutes before i read today newspaper..


the tittle made me stood like a stone.


do you believe that a girl age around me have made sexual intercourse with the person that she recently knew at chat rooms..WHAT THE HELL??? *sorry for using the word * and not only with a person but tons of them.can u imagine !!!


u know what,,it really have no relation with me,but im a girl too.so what is the girl doing with her life make me think..do these situation have to happen .why she have to make such decision. isnt her parents care about her??
mine i know they do.


i think that if u really love someone u dont need to give everything to the person..u need to care for ur dignity..and THE PERSON THAT LOVE U ALSO HAVE TO UNDERSTAND THAT U ARE A GIRL.A GIRL ONLY DEPENDS ON ITS DIGNITY.my mom always say that it its the precious things that u need to care all ur life eventhough u have married.


love is a great emotion but make realize that LOVE TO ALLAH is the greatest feeling.
do think before act.
i hope that GIRLS out there make this as lesson..
and GUYS out there DONT TAKE ADVENTAGE.


give all only to ALLAH..
the greatest of all.